Concerning Men

If i had to choose between marrying a man who ISN'T Rob Dyrdek or becoming a spinster for the rest of my life... spinster for sure.

My best friend and I are spinsters. Date us.





Oh yeah and FREE BRYANT?!??


3/4/09-
olivia is still a spinster

Fall

taking care of him while listening to the new pinback
i'm happiest when lying next to this one

it's the beginning of fall.. amazing


3/4/09-
well that's just silly

Steps 1-3

search for companionship in those that are broken or emotionally handicapped. attraction to selfish men. they are attracted to me. i have lived my life with one, i have been in love with some, and i have constantly torn myself apart over all of them:

i do not know what you see.
i see no radiance, i feel no life.

Step 1:
i was just a little kid. i didn't understand why you hated me so much. why everything i did was a mistake, and good for nothing. i tried so hard for you everyday. i wanted to be your little girl. i have never known you aside from a firm hand and a cold glare. when you are gone, i will look at your face and think to myself, "This old man is a stranger to me."

Step 2:
i put aside my life for you. i took you in. i gave you everything. i let you tear my dearest adorations away from me and bombard my sanctuary. you knew me, but you didn't. you hurt me, but you avoided it. i sang for you, but you mocked me. i hold the deepest resentment for you.

Step 3:
i have been your closest friend, i have loved you, and i have hated you. you are a conqueror. you are arrogant. you are careless. you wake up knowing this everyday, but still you do not change. i am not a possession, i am a gem. and i am sorry you never saw that. your eyes will never stop roaming.



i'm spent, goodnight.



3/4/09-
lol